Nightmares, nightmares

When I lay there and let myself be eaten,
Too afraid to even scream

When I can see her
Letting herself be carried away
Like a cheap toy of the moment
For life’s hot new fling––

What an agony
To be the bringer of my own pain
Taking new meaning
From old things

Starting again

Whipped by the frenzy I know
Disbelief in the significance
I bestow
Lancing myself
To maintain the past’s wishes

This new glow
Cannot come at a higher price;
Fight, fight
Though you cannot see the light
The sages say there is hope––
I can only hope
They are right.